Saturday, April 23, 2011
5 Things I Enjoy Most!!!
1) My Dog - Lucky
2) Family (Nephews)
3) Photography
4) Babies
5) Sunrises/Sunsets
Friday, April 22, 2011
You Are.....
You are the sunshine in the rain
You are the joy in the sorrow
You are the strength in the weakness
You are the peace in the madness
You are the courage in the fearsYou are the solace from the hurting
You are the refuge from the storm
You are the relief through the torment
You are the support through the tears
You are the comfort through the pain
You are the rest for the weary
You are the hope for the tomorrow
You are the cure for the ailing
You are the encouragement for the depressed
You are the remedy for the soul
Thursday, April 21, 2011
No Steps Forward!!!!
I called the insurance company today to see if they could tell me anything. The lady I spoke with hadn't received any paperwork asking for approval or anything. She said that there shouldn't have to be any since Temple was participating. I asked her if she could call them and tell Temple that since they seemingly are waiting on the insurance. She told me she didn't know where to call, but asked me to call Temple and get the procedure codes for what they want to do. Then call her back and she would see if they did need approval first. I still hadn't heard back from Temple when I called them on Friday and I couldn't reach anybody today either, so I just left another message.
The saying usually goes - one step forward, two steps back. well this time it doesn't even seem like we are taking any steps forward. I'm thinking somebody forgot how to walk :)
Home health nurse coming again in the morning for dressing change. I was also to the doctor on Monday and they ordered some more blood work so I need to get that done sometime this week. I may get that done tomorrow at Geisinger.
I still haven't heard anything regarding the job interview I had last Monday. I'm still hoping, but everyday that goes by and I don't hear anything my hopes go down. If I don't hear from them I'm thinking about looking to see if I can find anything else that would work with all my restrictions and such. I was hoping to get back to work with at least one week left on my FMLA, but that isn't looking too promising. I wanted at least a little time left so that when I started in the new department if I had to take off for any reason I would still have some time left. If I use all my FMLA I don't know what they will use for my doctor appointment and such since I will have no time whatsoever.
Taking it one day at a time!!!
The saying usually goes - one step forward, two steps back. well this time it doesn't even seem like we are taking any steps forward. I'm thinking somebody forgot how to walk :)
Home health nurse coming again in the morning for dressing change. I was also to the doctor on Monday and they ordered some more blood work so I need to get that done sometime this week. I may get that done tomorrow at Geisinger.
I still haven't heard anything regarding the job interview I had last Monday. I'm still hoping, but everyday that goes by and I don't hear anything my hopes go down. If I don't hear from them I'm thinking about looking to see if I can find anything else that would work with all my restrictions and such. I was hoping to get back to work with at least one week left on my FMLA, but that isn't looking too promising. I wanted at least a little time left so that when I started in the new department if I had to take off for any reason I would still have some time left. If I use all my FMLA I don't know what they will use for my doctor appointment and such since I will have no time whatsoever.
Taking it one day at a time!!!
Wednesday, April 20, 2011
It Will Be Worth It All!!!
No matter what we go through in this life, how hard and dark it might seem - It will be worth it all to make it safely to the other side. Everything in this life is worth it all to just make it to heaven and see Jesus.
I often lose sight of the end goal when problems in my life are right in front of me and that is all I can see. I go through life looking straight ahead as far as I can, but when problems in my life are so big I can't see very far ahead. I look at my feet and I can't see to even take the next step. It's so dark and I wonder if there is even ground underneath the next step. That is when I need to realize I shouldn't even be looking down or straight ahead but I need to look up because that is where I will find the help, the strength and wisdom I need to go on. I need to get my focus off my problems and focus on the goal, which is Jesus. Maybe God puts big huge problems right in front of us to remind us where we need to be looking - up!!! We need to look up to Him and trust him that there is ground underneath our next step and we just need to have faith in him.
I need to look at this trial as a stepping stone and see what growth and benefits I can get from it. I don't need to look at it as a valley but as something to build me up. Not looking at it as, am I ever going to get better, but look at it as what can I take from this. How can I use what I am going through to help others?
Yes, this was a lot easier to type than it is for me to actually try and do. With God's help though I will take this season of my life and make the best out of it.
Taking it one day at a time!!!
I often lose sight of the end goal when problems in my life are right in front of me and that is all I can see. I go through life looking straight ahead as far as I can, but when problems in my life are so big I can't see very far ahead. I look at my feet and I can't see to even take the next step. It's so dark and I wonder if there is even ground underneath the next step. That is when I need to realize I shouldn't even be looking down or straight ahead but I need to look up because that is where I will find the help, the strength and wisdom I need to go on. I need to get my focus off my problems and focus on the goal, which is Jesus. Maybe God puts big huge problems right in front of us to remind us where we need to be looking - up!!! We need to look up to Him and trust him that there is ground underneath our next step and we just need to have faith in him.
I need to look at this trial as a stepping stone and see what growth and benefits I can get from it. I don't need to look at it as a valley but as something to build me up. Not looking at it as, am I ever going to get better, but look at it as what can I take from this. How can I use what I am going through to help others?
Yes, this was a lot easier to type than it is for me to actually try and do. With God's help though I will take this season of my life and make the best out of it.
Taking it one day at a time!!!
Monday, April 18, 2011
Tired of Going Nowhere!!!! (Let me Vent)
The title describes how I have been feeling more often than not. I'm tired of just sitting here in limbo. Overall, most things are staying the same with somethings a little worse, but overall the same. I'm still on TPN. I try eating with more failure than success. My lower GI system still doesn't want to cooperate. My PICC is driving me crazy. I'm tired of not working and therefore no income.
I guess one of the hardest parts for me is to not know how things are going to turn out. I wish somehow somebody could just tell me the end result. Tell me if I will eventually get better or if I will stay like this or if things will just get worse. I know nobody can do that, but being in limbo with no important doctor appointments or procedures, just gets tiring. Nothing new being scheduled to try and see if there is anything that could possibly help me get better.
It has been going on 2 months now since I have been to Temple. To me it seems like I'm not one step closer to anything new than I was months ago. I call Temple every Friday to check and see if I am any closer to getting things moving again. This past Friday I didn't get to speak with anybody so I just left a message and I still haven't heard anything back from them. I'm thinking about calling the insurance company tomorrow to see if they have anything different to say. If not, I know somebody who has offered to go up the ladder and see if the people they know can get anything moving.
Lately I feel like my faith (what little I had) is slowly slipping away. It seems like God will/can help anybody else, but me. I realize we all go through what we go through because of what God might be trying to teach us, show us, or mold us. It just gets hard when your in the middle of it and you can't see any light on either end of the tunnel. I still know the reality that God has not neglected me or forgot about me, but it's easier to sit here and type it than to actually feel it.
Sorry to vent, but it's been awhile since my last "let me vent" post and tonight seemed like a good night to do that :)
Taking it one day at a time!!!
I guess one of the hardest parts for me is to not know how things are going to turn out. I wish somehow somebody could just tell me the end result. Tell me if I will eventually get better or if I will stay like this or if things will just get worse. I know nobody can do that, but being in limbo with no important doctor appointments or procedures, just gets tiring. Nothing new being scheduled to try and see if there is anything that could possibly help me get better.
It has been going on 2 months now since I have been to Temple. To me it seems like I'm not one step closer to anything new than I was months ago. I call Temple every Friday to check and see if I am any closer to getting things moving again. This past Friday I didn't get to speak with anybody so I just left a message and I still haven't heard anything back from them. I'm thinking about calling the insurance company tomorrow to see if they have anything different to say. If not, I know somebody who has offered to go up the ladder and see if the people they know can get anything moving.
Lately I feel like my faith (what little I had) is slowly slipping away. It seems like God will/can help anybody else, but me. I realize we all go through what we go through because of what God might be trying to teach us, show us, or mold us. It just gets hard when your in the middle of it and you can't see any light on either end of the tunnel. I still know the reality that God has not neglected me or forgot about me, but it's easier to sit here and type it than to actually feel it.
Sorry to vent, but it's been awhile since my last "let me vent" post and tonight seemed like a good night to do that :)
Taking it one day at a time!!!
Reality!!!
Posted in order from most frequent to less frequent:
There will be bad start days with bad end days.
There will be good start days with bad end days.
There may even be bad start days with good end days.
But there will rarely, if ever, be great start days and great end days.
That unfortunately is reality for me. Hopefully if Temple and the insurance will communicate and get on the same page, maybe reality for me can change.
Three important prayer requests from me for this week:
1. That there will be progress with Temple and the insurance.
2. That I would get the job I interviewed for.
3. If I get the job, that the doctors will release me to go back to work soon.
Will keep you posted through the week.
Taking it one day at a time!!!
There will be bad start days with bad end days.
There will be good start days with bad end days.
There may even be bad start days with good end days.
But there will rarely, if ever, be great start days and great end days.
That unfortunately is reality for me. Hopefully if Temple and the insurance will communicate and get on the same page, maybe reality for me can change.
Three important prayer requests from me for this week:
1. That there will be progress with Temple and the insurance.
2. That I would get the job I interviewed for.
3. If I get the job, that the doctors will release me to go back to work soon.
Will keep you posted through the week.
Taking it one day at a time!!!
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