My Mountain's A Hill

I heard a song last night that put things in perspective based on what really matters. My mountain is just a hill from heaven's point of view. What seems so large to me right now in my life is just small in God's eyes. The mountain that is right in front of me that I can't see what is on the other side. That mountain is just a hill!!!

I may think I'm never going to get through this mountain, I'm never going to get to the other side, and I'm never going to come through this situation. The hardest part is not knowing. I don't know what lies ahead. I just have to realize and trust God that even through my problems, through my mountain which seems so big. So big that I have no idea how I'm going to ever climb this mountain. I just have to realize that this mountain is just a hill, from heaven's point of view.

It gets frustrating for me to be seemingly in limbo. No important appointment scheduled. I'm just sitting around waiting to get some Temple appointments scheduled. Nothings changing...it's the same old, same old...... I know that God is the only one that knows my future, but it's hard for me not to know some things. Am I ever going to get off the TPN? Will I be on it for the rest of my life? Is Temple going to be able to help? Am I going to be like this from now on?

I want to make plans with my life and try to have goals. It's hard for me to just go from day to day, week to week, and month to month with no changes and no plans to help things change.

I just have to remember that the most important things in life!! That this mountain may be bigger than Mt. Rainier in my eyes but With God's help and his teaching, I'm going to climb this mountain one way or another. Which actually is just a little hill from heaven's point of view!!!!

Taking it one day at a time!!!

4/7/2011

Well, I had to make a trip to Geisinger today. When I flushed my PICC this morning there was no blood return. I tried for awhile but I couldn't get it fixed. I tried all the tricks I would try as if it was my paitent. When this happens at work we page the IV team and then when they come and try it works right away for them. So that is what happened when I went. The IV team came and right away it started working for them. I felt so stupid.

The job I'm interviewing for is a desk job which is just what I need right now. I am sad that I can't do actual floor nursing for awhile but this is the situation I'm in right now. Hopefully one day I can return to SCU3 and work again but for now I'm happy that they are helping me and found me something that I can do in this current situation.

I tried calling Temple today to see what the hold up is but I just got the answering machine. I left a message and will try calling them tomorrow. I just am getting so frustrated with this waiting game.

Taking it one day at a time!!!

Job Update!!!

I missed a call yesterday from my nightshift coordinator. So this morning when I woke up there were 2 texts from her telling me to call my boss because she had something to discuss with me. I called my boss and there was no answer so I just left a message telling her to call me back. She called back and told me that she found a job that needed a good nurse. She told me that she already put a good word in for me with the manager there and that they were really interested in having me. She explained to me that I could transfer to that department and then when I am better and able to be a floor nurse again, it sounded like she would welcome me back. So she went ahead and gave that department my number and they just called me this evening and scheduled the interview. I'm excited and scared at the same time. The interview is for this Monday at 10:00am.